Tagged: Lockdown

Time for a little lookback at the moments of 2021. They are mostly highlights, but I didn’t want to totally forget the more difficult times – it feels easy to forget the misery of the first 3 months of 2021 when we were in perpetual lockdown. So, starting with… 17. That miserable lockdown I remember thinking during the first lockdown how lucky we were that it happened in spring, especially given how glorious the weather was. I also remember realising around November 2020 that the upcoming winter was going to be really difficult. It was. It was long and often …

I had contrasting responses to the end of the two main lockdowns – as the first lockdown ended I was still very subdued and I think somewhat shaken out of living – it took weeks until I ventured to a pub or restaurant. This lockdown, I ended with a flurry of activity – drinking out on both Tuesday and Wednesday evening (which is rare for me), then a staycation in Matlock for the weekend. Why Matlock? The reason for the staycation is that when our Vacuum of Integrity announced the roadmap out of lockdown, we realised that it would be …

Years ago I would have bemoaned my loneliness on Valentine’s Day. You could probably search this blog for a few “why am I so lonely” posts. This year, I didn’t care. In fact, I now feel like I prefer being on my own. I remember when the first lockdown happened, saying things like “well at least it didn’t happen in winter – at least we have the warm sunshine and I can sit outside and have a beer”. Well… I remember the first lockdown, when it was all new to us – there was a sense of worry, of the …

I was talking the night before I started writing this post to a friend, and discussing 2020 and how crap it has been. I could easily conclude so, but I’m a contrarian fucker at times and I argued instead that 2020 has been good for me in some ways – life being cancelled and working from home permanently has meant that I can cook more often, and eat much healthier food. Which is what this post is about. One of the most immediate changes was how I started the day. I had got into a pattern of being fucked off …

Lockdown life has become a bit of a struggle at times. I’m now back to my usual cheerful, jokey self and have been for 10 days or so, but I had a good couple of weeks before that where I was consistently really fucking miserable. I didn’t understand at first why I’d become so unhappy the last few weeks. It would have made sense at the start of lockdown, but why late May/early June when freedoms were slowly being granted? Normally in life I am happy most days, at least in the last few years since discovering purpose to life …

So what happened this week? Well the same as every week for the last forgettable amount of forgettable weeks with absolutely zero chance of doing anything different. I just had to apologise to 3 of my dearest on a video call for thanking them for the highlight of my week – which was a beer-fueled Zoom call and the best Zoom call so far. Yet the rest of the week was monotony. Wake up. Before 6am. It won’t be long before 5am is a lie in…damn you sunniest spring ever. Go for a walk. I walk through this little nature …